Today I Got Fired
Ok, not really.
It happened on Wednesday.
They beat me to the punch! I wanted to quit first! Alas. Either way, though, it's great material for today's post.
How far can you push yourself to do work you don't really want to do?
Let's put this work in terms of an occurrence that is more frequent than debating leaving a job: conversations. When you're in a really great conversation, it's that wonderful feeling of excitement. Unicorns poop rainbows, everyone thinks you're a brilliant, witty wordsmith, and you get just as much satisfaction from the person you're talking to as they do from you. (Phrasing!)
In a terrible conversation, things just suuuuuck. Boredom is your unwanted companion on the long, arduous journey to going back to the land where you actually cared. You might be considerate and give the personification of doldrums another chance by changing the subject. At times, though, this change in the course of conversation usually doesn't fix the source of the problem: Khun* Doldrums.
My job was Khun Doldrums. Khun Doldrums so hard. After the initial burst of energy in dedication and concentration in my work (let's say about 2 weeks), the cause of the problem emerged: the work wasn't stimulating, nor the pay good enough for me to put forth the high amount of effort needed to get the job done. They sensed that before I could verbalize it, so I got fired before I could quit. Total time at the job: about 2.5 months.
So how far can you push yourself to do something you don't want to do? The answer is not something I can dictate for you and it's not a sly recommendation to do something rash without doing your due diligence. All I'm saying is that you should remember to listen to your body and mind and understand when the cost of doing the task is hurting you more than the supposed benefits.
I'm not giving up and I'm not failing. There are many ways to reach what I want, and I've just found a way that isn't one of them.
*If you're curious, "Khun" is a Thai honorific used for both men and women. It's equivalent to "Mr." "Mrs." or "Miss".